[7 words] word seven: deeper

This year, this will be the last n final entry for me…after this, new year, new beginning, and i hope, i pray, new feeling…this year, whatever feeling i started my year with, all grew deeper, be it love, affection, passion for work and friendship among other things… fortunately, this year, i didn’t hate anyone like last year, and no real negative feeling… I managed to re-kindled my friendship with my old schoolmates, gained new ’shipmates’ although that’s not something that i’m supposed to be proud of. everyday that goes by, our life goes deeper in the sea of life, till the end when we sinks totally…and when that time comes…it’s how we face it that’s matter…i am just rambling through today, just like any other day…i wish i could actually write all the big bangs of this year, but if i do, it’ll take more than just one day just to list it down…and so i chose not to…

as to the seven words posting, i failed…when i started writing it, i wanted it to be un-finished, i dont want to finish the 7 words, because if i do, that means that i can’t shake the feeling off and the feeling grew deeper, i prayed this year that i could somehow un-love her, but till right now, i failed…and so, my next year’s resolution: to continue whatever path that this year’s has opened…but for now…

Once – aku mau

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

well, till next year…love and prayers for y’all…and me…

this year: I’m done….

damn cool song…

Finger Eleven – Paralyzer

I hold on so nervously
To me and my drink
I wish it was cooling me
But so far, has not been good
It’s been shitty
And I feel awkward, as I should
This club has got to be
The most pretentious thing
Since I thought you and me
Well I am imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

I hold out for one more drink
Before I think
I’m looking too desperately
But so far has not been fun
I should just stay home
If one thing really means one
This club will hopefully
Be closed in three weeks
That would be cool with me
Well I’m still imagining
A dark lit place
Or your place or my place

Well I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

We’ll I’m not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

Not paralyzed
But, I seem to be struck by you
I want to make you move
Because you’re standing still
If your body matches
What your eyes can do
You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

You’ll probably move right through
Me on my way to you

**well, that’s how i see the situation anyway…love n prayers for y’all…**

yesterday, today n tomorrow…

let’s play a simple game..

imagine you’re out with your friend, your friend tells you, let’s go have lunch, what do you think we should have. let say you’re somewhere in Bukit Bintang area, what will your suggestion be?

Now i could predict 4 types of answer that could come from you:

1/ you’ll suggest a place you’ve always go to in that area.

2/ you’ll suggest a new place someone else’s suggest to you which you never tried before.

3/ you’ll look around and pick what ever place you can see.

4/ you’ll say, no thanks, no lunch for me, i’m dieting (hahahahahahahaha…)

okay, seriously…im gonna ignore the 4th answer because why im gonna write is about the first 3 answers. from the situation above we can actually take a glimpse into how a person thinks or react to a situation.

Answer no. 1, suggesting the known place in that area might mean that the person most of the time if not all the time (hehe) would make a decision based on his/her experiences which means of the past. Lets say it’s a new place, and this person never had anything to eat in that particular place, that person most likely would ask the other person to decide.

Now, for answer no. 2, suggesting a new place someone else suggested. Again , the person who answered this most likely make his/her decision based on the future gained. This kind of person would go for the option which will present the most benefit when this person is left to decide of what to do for a particular situation.

The last answer. No. 3, Look around and pick any option within sight. Now, individuals like this would decide most of his/her decision based on what’s in the hand. Regardless of whether he/her had any experiences or not. Can be quite impulsive some of the time. Let him decide, he’ll look on the options presented and choose what most likely can satisfied the need.

Well, how do we decide? do we look at wisdom gained from yesterday? do we look at potential benefit in the future? or we simply choose from what we have today?

take care y’all…

love n prayers for y’all….

-eNd-

of the aging human…

Once i argued with a friend of mine…well, maybe not arguing, but more like having a quite heated discussion…anyway, it’s about experience, my view was, experience comes solely from doing things and not by how old you are…my reason being, only by doing things you can understand how it is, and what makes it tick… for example, let say in a game of basketball, you have 2 person, Me and another young boy of the age of 17. By the way, this is a true story… between me and him, well, there’s a huge gap of age there and ofcoz i started playing basketball first, however, since i only play it on n off and he had been playing it more before he is 17 than all my years combined, he is more experienced than me, the result in an one on one match: my ass kicked…(not funny..haha)…well, just imagine, he play basketball at least once a day and twice on weekend…me? well, 10 times in the whole year…wouldn’t that make me a baby in his hand during a match?seriously…

“Nothing I do can’t be done by a ten-year-old with fifteen years of practice.” ~ Harry Blackstone Jr. (1934-1997) U.S. magician

Ofcoz..not all experiences is directly related to doing thing, we also have to learn from what others around us do or didnt do… for instance, we dont need to get your hand burned after seeing someone get burnt. This would be plain dumb, in this case, we should just keep in mind that being burnt is painful, suffering and not at all fun by just looking at the expression and reaction of the burned person…

Learn all you can from the mistakes of others. You won’t have time to make them all yourself.” ~ Alfred Sheinwold

however, this wont be a true experience for us, it’s a learnt knowledge, wisdom if u will…because although we know it’s painful and all when burned, we cant really fully understand the feeling, the painful feeling.

Seriously, experiences also comes more from being affected directly by incidents, bad incidents work better than the other, i might say…for instance, we can learn all we need to know about how friendship, how a true friend should be, the value of friendship, but until we need them the most we will experience the true meaning of friendship and we will learned who’s our real friends are…for instance, we all have our close friend right, then one day, something bad happened to us and we need their help and they’re not there to help us, let’s say for unreasonable reason. Wont this make us realized which kind of friend we can really rely on by being directly feeling the affect of 2 bad incident, the first incident and the refusal of our so called friend to help for unreasonable reason.  The worse the incident, the better your understanding of that experiences.  Give you another example, lets say you’ve been betrayed by someone or more close friend.  You’ll have a more extensive understanding of what kind of friend would have the risk of betraying you…of coz, how one considered as betrayal is for us to decide.

“I learned more about economics from one South Dakota dust storm than I did in all my years in college.” ~ Hubert Humphrey, speech, 1960

But ofcoz, im not denying, age is related to experience as well because theoretically, the older we are, the more we did something, the more incidents we’ve gone through, but this is just a theoretical concept, age is not a direct link to experience, much less maturity (i should know, I’m still considered as not mature enough by some), but that’s beside the point…My point is, no matter what age we are, we might not be more experienced from the people younger than us in all things.

“Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had, and what you’ve learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.”
Author Unknown

what am i writing about? am i making any sense? or all this is just bullshit?

dunno, and seriously dont care…still…

take care y’all…

love n prayers for y’all….

-eNd-

emotional blast…

feeling a bit down…and, well……

take care y’all…

love n prayers for y’all….

-eNd-

a cool song: catchy but sad…

Here is one of the song in my playlist right now…it’s a cool song by my standard…

Dashboard Confessional - Stolen

You watch the season pull up its own stage
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season
Fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grand farewells
Crash the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and
Cloudy eye
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the bottle flow, we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams are sure
And we all will sleep well
We’ll sleep well…

You have stolen
You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around
In the highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

enjoy: love n prayers for y’all….

“All our young lives we search for someone to love, someone to make us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, someone perfect is searching for us.” – The Wonder Years

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words of power: one (to encourage)

I’ve always been fascinated by words… I love to play around with it, look beyond the conventional meaning of it, try to give new meaning for it and well basically i love to manipulate it… I’m not so sure is it a bad thing or a good thing… but i know that a word or a set of words have it’s own power over people’s reaction and emotion.  One of it’s known power is it could encourage or discourage someone if used properly…

“…words can be a powerful healing tool if used with loving intention, to uplift, encourage and inspire.” – John McLeod

“….the gentle words of encouragement that were meant to strengthen my quests.” – Author Unknown, from Mother

“A Short Course in Human Relations
The 6 most important words: I admit I was wrong.
The 5 most important words: You did a great job.
The 4 most important words: What do you think?
The 3 most important words: Could you please.
The 2 most important words: Thank you!
The most important word: We.
The least important word: I.”
Author Unknown  

“A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success.” – Author Unknown  

For me, just 3 simple words can encourage someone to chase their dream.

“YES! YOU CAN!”

These words if we tell someone repeatedly, will not just show we have faith and believe in them, but also tell them that they have at least our moral support…ofcoz, when saying it, the proper intonation should be used to emphasized on the meaning of it…we can’t say it in a mellow intonation and then yawn, now can we? it doesnt really show that we actually say it with faith and belief but rather with annoyance or boredom…

Now, the other 3 words that can bring down even the highest spirited person will be.

“NO! YOU CAN’T!”

dont try saying this on other people, just say it to ourselves every day for the next 1 month, no, better yet, 2 weeks only, for a particular thing… i’m pretty sure, at the end of the 2 weeks, most of us, if not all, will just abandon whatever thing they want to do in the first place…

Words are actually dangerous and need to be used n interpreted correctly… We all say things everyday and mostly without thinking the affect it might have unto others…  Just remember this, we don’t want to accidentally encourage someone to commit suicide or hurt someone else now rite?

“parasitism or symbiosis hide in words…”

I’m done: l8er, love n prayers for y’all…

-eNd-

[7 words] word six: grows

Everything we see grows from one thing to another, some grow to be a better persona, and some grow darker and became an abomination to the eyes… the world is an ever growing place…

Some we can control, but others are totally out of our control… for example, friendship, we can’t control friendship from growing by, ignoring other people, isolating ourselves from any interactions with other people, but those who value us as their friends will simply be ignorance and still put some efforts to interact with us even when we try so hard not to have it…now  take cockroaches as example, we found the egg somewhere hidden behind our cupboard, now we can simply crush the egg and therefore prevents the egg from growing into ever-annoying roaches in the future…

In my opinion, the growing process of something that has some material/organic forms can be controlled and further eliminated from existence, though sometime we have to resort to a more cruel way to do it… however, we can’t control something that in essence comes from the mind and heart, such as friendship, hatred, point of view and of course, love… these thing comes naturally, out of control and will continue to grow, even when we don’t want it to grow… it is best to let it take its own course and see where it goes… we can however ignore it and do things that we think better for any particular situations…

Sunday boredom: L8er, love n prayers for y’all…

“You’re the only person who can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.”
~ The Hot Chick -

10 for answers..

My email have been ’spammed’ by ppl who asked me why am i still in love with someone knowing i never did anything… well, normally i would just say, fuck off and it’s none of your business.. but these are the people whom i admire and i value their existence in my life, but seriously, i have no answers of my own of to why…so i gathered 10 quotes that can best explain my situation… if these quotes cant satisfy your questions, then too bad.. you just have to ACCEPT IT just the way it is… as i am rite now… concentrate on the bold n italic part of it for that’s my answer..

01/ Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall. – Unknown

02/ It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else, but it’s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. – Unknown

03/ When they asked me what I loved most about life, I smiled and said you. – Tina (City of Angels)

04/ For every word you say, another piece of my heart you take. – Tiara Johnson

05/ Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you still feel you can take it. Never say you don’t love a person when you can’t let go. – Dons

06/ Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that’s what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going. – Practical Magic

07/ I love you without knowing how, why, or even from where - Patch Adams

08/ I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. - Chasing Amy

09/ I’d rather have you as a friend than not have you in my life at all. – American Pie

10/ Do you know that place between being asleep and awake, where you still remember your dreams? Thats where I’ll always love, that’s where I’ll always wait for you. – Tinkerbell (Hook)