the war within…

how many wars were fought since the creation of men?

how may lives were lost during these wars?

how many reasons was used for it?

everyday we see wars here n there…poster war, client war, ‘righteous war’ and political war are just examples for wars…

But do u know the biggest most important war is fought everyday in the morning? (in most cases)…

Im talking about the war within ourselves when we decided whether to wake up or continue our slumber just so that we can get the ending of the sweetest dream ever…

Why am i writing all this? It’s because I’ve been loosing the war these past few weeks…ever since that one night… before that night, i’d welcome the day with enthusiasm, no matter how late i went to sleep the previous night, but now… everyday, 6.30am, I’d wake up and choose to go back to sleep… just to continue the dream…the dream where all things are the things that make me happy…

Honestly, i miss my old self, im still myself though, dont get me wrong, i just prefer my old way, now im too zen-ned out, im numb to most feeling…and it make me feel like im almost loosing the humanity in me…

*sigh* well, i hope things will be better…tomorrow… i hope tomorrow will be yesterday so that the tomorrow i’ve been waiting for is here faster…

may the war is won by the deserving…

love n prayers for y’all…

l8er…

~ by sinistar on March 7, 2008.